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Saturday, January 24, 2009

January 2009

I had a really good birthday. So many people wished me a happy birthday...that was great...that's all I really wanted.

Policy: It's the simple things in life that make me happy.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

2009 Policy

Don't jump or fall to quickly in the new year

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Find a better way to deal with my emotions policy

Deep inside I hurt - I hurt about how I don't feel socially together and that my social life is unbalanced. This may read weird, but it's a deep and complicated pain I feel - masked by laughter.

For 2009, I have to find a better outlet for my pinned up emotions. No one knows I hurt as bad as I do because all they see is a fun loving, positive thinking, happy go lucky woman - don't they see right through my fake smile? Don't they see my tears?

I get completely disappointed only to myself - I never show my true feelings - I'm invisible.

Monday, December 01, 2008

I know....(Socially unstable, mentally unchallenged, emotionally cognizant, sexually amazing, financially unfenced spiritual being totally unbalanced by life at times)...therefore I am.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

New Job Policy

Well really not a new job. I've been here now for about two years. Yes, it's been that long since I last wrote. But I changed jobs and everything is so much better. I'm happy.

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Welcome to POLICY MAKER...

I make the rules...cuz I own the game....

Therefore, what this blog is about me making my own rules in the game of life.....

The playbook will cover my rules to the following (in NO order) :

  • Respect, self-esteem and loving one's self
  • Men
  • Career
  • Children
  • Family
  • Friends
  • And just general bullshit as it occurrs.

These are my policies.....

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Fitness Policy

My policy to dedicate myself to life long fitness.

I have no choice. I am truly blessed that at this moment in time I do not have any health related conditions. I do not take medicine for anything for any reason and in order for me to stay that way....I needed to make some SERIOUS changes.

Last summer, when I was 34, I started Weight Watchers. I thought counting the points was easy. And I was TRYING to fit exercise into my schedule. I lost about 5 pounds. YEAH!!! At the time, I truly thought that was good progress....but then the WINTER set in.

AWWW, WINTER. I didn't get mixed up with eating around the holidays....I was eating EVERYDAY...regardless if it was a holiday or not. I will admit. I LOVE FOOD. Good food is...what...hell... GOOD. But good tasting food doesn't always mean it's good for you.

My goal New Year's Eve 2004 (before I turned 34) was to fit and trim by my 35th birthday. That would have given me a year to do the damn thang. And when I turned 35...I was no where near fit and trim. I more like beat down. I had to really begin to take stock and make some REAL changes.

So I in February, I did. And I don't give myself a hard time about it if I fall off track. February 20, I changed everything...and so now I am about 10 pounds lighter, but my body is shaping up differently. I have since joined World Gym and I actually feel good about execerising.

My challenge to myself is to do the Body for Life program, mixed with eating meals from Diet to go. I think between the two, I can make a difference in my mind, body and appearence....but more importantly....keeping me off any types of medications for the rest of my life.